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Monday, October 25th, 2004
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The mind is such a fragile thing....it scares me sometimes....
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Friday, August 27th, 2004
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Full name: Michael Paul Anthony Cipriano
* Eyes: brown
* Hair: brown
* Height: 5'7-8"ish
* Shoe Size: 10 1/2
* Have tattoos?: nope
* Have piercings?: Left nipple
* Have a BF/GF?: Yes I do =)
* Own a webcam?: Nope
* Own a thong? : lol yea
* Wear perfume/cologne? yup
HAVE YOU EVER...
* Flown on a plane: quite a few times
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: nope
* Missed school because it was raining: no
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yeah
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: no
* Had a crush on a friends girlfriend/boyfriend: no
* Been hurt emotionally: You bet
* Had an imaginary friend: surprisingly no
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: Yea
* Been on stage: yeah...I'm in a band and I did some plays in high school
* Cut your hair: about once a month
* Had crush on a teacher?: not really a crush, just thought they were hot
FAVORITE
* Fav Color: red
* Day/Night: depends
* Summer/Winter: summer
* Lace or Satin: they're both nice
* Cartoon Character: SPONGE BOB!!!!!!
* Fave Food: Chinese
* Fave Advertisement: I dunno
* Fave Drink: A cherry and vanilla misto from Rita's Ice
* Breakfast Food: home fries
*Ice Cream: Vanilla or cookie dough
*Fave sport: Racquetball
*Fave Flower: don't have a favorite
RIGHT NOW
* Wearing: shorts, a t-shirt and sandals
* Eating: nada
* Drinking: nada
* Thinking bout: This survey
IN THE LAST 24 HRS...
* Cried: almost
* Worn jeans: no
* Met someone New online: no...I'm not really in to that
* Done laundry: no
* Drove a car: yes
* Talked on the phone: yes
* Kissed someone: nope...
* Said "I love you": yes
* Picked a wedgie?: yep
DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
* Yourself: sometimes
* Your friends: sometimes
* Santa Claus: why wouldn't I?...
* Tooth Fairy: oh yea
* Angels: yea
* Ghosts: yea
* UFO's: yea
* God: Yea
* Love at first sight?: nope
FRIENDS AND LIFE...
* Do you ever wish you had another name?: Yes I do
* Do you like anyone?: I like lots of people
* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Anthony
* Are you close to any family members?: yeah
* Who's the weirdest?: Anthony
* Who do you hang out with the most?: It used to be Gina....but not that often anymore =(.....It's a combonation between her, keith and anthony
FINISH THE SENTENCE
Let's walk in the: rain
Let's run through: the sand
Let's look at the: stars
What a nice: day
When will it: end
How can: you do this
Why can't you: just love me
Show me some: love
The sky: beautiful
Tell me: what i mean to you
Hide me: from lies
Love me: unconditionally head over heals always...
WHICH IS BETTER...
* Coke or Pepsi: coke
* Sprite or 7UP: sierra mist by far
* Girls or Guys: girls
* Scruff or Clean shaved: On girls....clean shaved..lol...Guys...I don't give a shit, I hate shaving
* Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
* Bitchy or Slutty: slutty....at least you can have fun instead of just having people hate you....lol
* Tall or Short: depends
* Pants or Shorts: is it hot or cold?
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
* What do you notice first: face
* Last person you slow danced with: Gina
* Worst Question To Ask: Are you happy....I'm afraid of the answer sometimes
*Last time someone said they loved you: last night
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I realized at work today why I don't like being a telemarketer anymore. It's not really because of the job, not because of the people that scream at me, it's because of me. I'm at work and I have nothing to do besides sit there and think. That used to not be a bad thing until recently. I can't think anymore or I just get bad. I've been pretty bad lately and it's horrible. I keep thinking about things, past, present, future. I never thought it would be this bad. It's probably part of th reason why I've been losing sleep lately. I'll never really know I guess. I hope I get more than 2 hours of sleep tonight. That would be nice. I don't like this. I did something tonight on my car right home that I haven't done in A LONG time. I haven't done this since I was 17 years old (I'll be 20 in a couple of weeks). When I was driving home, I was punching the steering wheel and screaming "FUCK!". I had a head ache, but all I could do was make my music so loud and just scream with it. I guess I just snapped for a little bit. That normally doesn't come to me.............my head still hurts.....
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I feel like I'm sitting still but moving forward very fast at the same time.....I hope I don't crash.....
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This attic is filled with rain about to pour
This attic is filled with anger about to burst
This attic was filled with hope that is no more
This attic leads right to the cellar door
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Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
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breathe in
breathe out
breathe in
breathe out
resist the urge to throw or hit something
breathe in
breahte out.....
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So since April 22nd I've been driving out to Syosset when ever I could to see Gina because she was living at her grandparents until she moved in to the new house. That felt like forever away, but it happened yesterday. I helped her and her parents move a lot of their stuff to the new house in Setauket. I'm glad that I was able to help them out. It was actually a good time. It's such a beautiful house...it just sucks that it's kinda far away. I ended up sleeping there cuz I was so tired from helping them move but I was WAY comfy cuz their couch rocks with that feather thingy ma bob that I slept on too.
Well today is the 4th of July and I worked. I was supposed to work from 6-close, but it was so dead that they cut me at 8:45 lol. I ended up picking someone's shift up tomorrow so atlease I get to work. It's in the morning which is why i didn't drink tonight at Sabs' house. I wish I was with Gina tonight....hopefully I'll see her tomorrow....
Well I'm off to bed
g'night
-Mike-
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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I hate this feeling...it's very embarrassing and I don't like how I feel right now. I feel like I'm second......
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Ok...here's a quick update...
School is over...I didn't do so well this semester...I better do better next semester and every sememster there after
Gina's birthday was the other day, it was nice, we went to the olive garden and they gave our cake to someone else, it was kinda funny after the fact and it's something we'll all remember
I applied at Bennigans and they want to start me next week
I joined Amritraj and I love Raquetball
Today was a pretty bleh day....so hopefully tomorrow will be better
g'night
-Mike-
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
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Hey, it's been a long time since I've updated, but I actually have an excuse this time. My computer completely crashed and I had to reinstall a new hard drive and start from scratch again....that wasn't fun. I lost all of my documents, music, pictures....it really blows. Luckily Gina had a bunch of pics and some songs to send me, so I'm starting off ok on a good start. Atleast now I have a lot more room on my computer...hehe... Tonight I saw Metallica....OMG it was sooooooooooo fuckin awesome. They kick ass. There is something about a Metallica show that is unlike any other concert you will ever go to. You don't know what I'm talking about unless you actually go to a show. Out of every band that I've seen, Metallica has this certain stage presence like no other band. The energy that they give off and the way that the sold out arena reacts to them is just incredible and they fuckin kick ass. They played an awesome set and closed with metal militia. They haven't played that song since feb. 7th 1985....James was serious that they haven't played it in a hundred years..lol. So now I'm back at my room and I'm WAY tired. I feel like I can go to sleep right now.
Gina comes home on thursday which is SOOO awesome. Given that it's 12:56, that means that she's comin home tomorrow....OMG I am so excited for her to actually be home. I miss her so much and seeing her once a month just doesn't compare to seeing her at least every weekend and I know it will probably be more than that (while I'm in school at least). She's so great and I just can't wait to have her home and in my arms =) I love Gina.
Well like I said...I"M REALLY FUCKIN TIRED....so I'm out
-Mike-
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Tuesday, March 30th, 2004
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Yeah, so last night I had a pretty bad dream...I haven't had one like this in a while...I don't know why I had it. It was one of those dreams that when I woke up I was mad. I dreamt that I was at Gina's senior prom and all of a sudden jake showed up. At first I didn't really care, but then they started talking and before I knew it, she was completely ignoring me. She didn't say one word to me after she saw him. I kept watching them and they were both laughing and then crying and then hugging and I was just really pissed off. At one point I couldn't watch them anymore so I went to the bathroom and when I was in their, somone ran in and threw up. It just wasn't a good dream. After that I noticed that they both left and she left me there by myself. I really woke up mad cuz I thought it was real. This was just one of the worst dreams I've had in a while. It might not sound bad reading it, but it felt bad when I was in the dream....oh well....dreams are dreams...
-Mike-
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So lemme give you a lil update on my past weekend. On friday I woke up kinda early and went to go see my advisor. After I decided that I def. don't want to work in TV at all any more past my AVF24 class, I've been kinda bummed out, cuz I didn't know what I wanted to do. After talking with my sis Elaine, she helped me come to a conclusion. I want to be and elementary school teacher. That is a career that is something that I would very much like to do, is fullfilling (to me atleast), and is just a really good thing to do. I was very happy that I had finally concluded that. When I went to my advisor, he told me that if I were to major in elementary ed. now, I'd have to go to school for an extra year (I'm not gonna do that). What we decided to do, is that I am going to be a liberal arts major and then I will go to Grad school for elementary education. I was very happy that I have come to that conclusion in my life. It is kinda scary though knowing that I just pretty much mapped out my whole career at the age of 19....but ya gotta do it sometime I guess. I feel happy now and not depressed...finally. Friday night Forsaken played a show. That was fun. We played ok, but it was just fun to be there. Our next show is the battle of the bands here at Hofstra. After about 4 hours of sleep, I had to wake up early the next morning to proctor the SAT's at Carol's school. When I woke up my back was killing me and that wasn't too pleasent. At the SAT's, it was my first time proctoring a whole class by myself. It was cool. I think I liked it better. It was prepping me to be a teacher..lol. When I got done with the SAT's, I went back to Deer Park and then I went to Gina's house and helped George and Phil move stuff from Gina's house into storage. It's really weird to know that they're def. moving. By the time that Gina comes home from school, new people will be in their house and they will be living with Gina's grandparents.....very very weird. It's gonna be cool though when they move in to their new house in Setauket. BEAUTIFUL house and according to Gina and her mom I'm gonna be doing the cooking there...lol. I thought it was funny that her mom bought me a 6 back of root beer...they really love me =) lol. So after about 6 hours of moving lots of furniture and stuff....my back didn't feel any better..lol, but I was happy to have helped them. That night I just stayed home, layed down and talked to Gina while she was at the hotel with her mom. On sunday I just woke up, chilled out for a while and went back to school to develop pictures for photo. My back is still killing me. I really hope it stops hurting by this weekend. I'm going to Boston for the last time this school year to visit Gina and I want to be in good condition..hehe. I heard that I-95 is functional again. A gas truck or something went on fire and partially melted an over pass and there was this whole big mess, but it should be ok by the time I go up there on friday. This is my last week of school before spring break. I just have to go through these 4 days and I will be on break for a week.....ooooooohhhh that sounds so nice. Hopefully Forsaken will record and EP durring that time...we'll see what happens. Well that's all for me for now...
Cheerio! =)
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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
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what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do what do I do with my life....
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At the end of February I went to Boston to visit Gina and that trip was probably one of the best one's I've had, because the weather was beautiful (so there wasn't wind blowing at 50 mph in my face on Newburry street) and Gina came home with me. That was awesome. The ride home is always lonely and sucks cuz I'm leaving her but she was right next to me the whole time and that made me very happy. She was home that whole week because it was her spring break. I was in school, but I went home to see her whenever I was able to. It was nice. Last weekend, we went out for Valentines day...lol finally. I mean we only went to the Olive Garden, but it was nice. I had a good time. It was just over all really nice to have her home. It turns out that she's def. moving. It's kinda weird. If I don't help her parents move, last saturday was the last time that I'll ever go to that house. The new house that her parents are gonna get is really nice though and yeah it's far away, but it's a hell of a lot closer than Boston..lol. I'd rather drive a 1/2 hour instead of 4 hours..lol. She comes home for summer vacation next month already. I'm gonna go to Boston 2 more times before school ends, but I just can't believe that she has about a month and a half left of school already. That will be really nice when she's home for good and I can just see her whenever. She'll be living with her grandparents for a lil while, but that's just till they move into the huge house.....hmm...lets see what else is new......I"m really getting in to AFI. I bought Black Sails into the Sunset yesterday...I love it...very good album. I think this weekend I'm actually going to be able to get some stuff done. Joe, Keith and Ant are goin to Sienna to visit Brittney, so I'll be able to just sit down get some work done, go out take some pictures...I think it's goin to be a relaxing weekend. I might also go to see Elaine and Ed's new appartment. On sunday I have my first thing as production Manager with Hofstra Concerts...we're doing a coffee house. Oh yeah, that's something new, I became production manager of Hofstra concerts...so that's pretty cool. I'm in charge of the shows and stuff. Go me. Well I gonna go study for a test that I have in about an hour
-Mike-
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
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Ok...so if you know me, then you know that I am not one for politics. I don't really follow them or know too much about any one particular political party or their candidates. I know a lot of people don't like President Bush but in the same respects, many people also do. To me, I never really knew much about him except for the fact that some times he says really stupid things such as saying that a vast majority of our imports come from other places...but ya know what, that's fine whatever, this guy makes lots of speaches and I'm sure anyone who makes a lot of speaches is bound to mess up from time to time. To me Bush never really did anything that effected me or anything that I stand for(besides the fact that he took us war, which in that case...I just don't like war, period.), so it didn't matter that much to me that he was president.
In 1998 when the whole Bill Clinton and Monica Lewinski thing happend, I remember my mom telling me that she was embarrassed that he was our president because of what he did (cheating on his wife and lying under oath). To me, that really didn't matter. As far as I know, he was a good president. We didn't go to war and our economy was very good. Today I can honestly say that I am VERY embarrassed that George W. Bush is our president. To say that homosexual marriages should be out lawed and ammend the constitution to say so disturbes me in so many ways. What the hell is he thinking? It's really hard for me to believe that The President of the United States of America in the year 2004 can just have such a closed mind about this issue. Lets wake up and see the world around us shall we. Gay people exist. It's true, oh dear God what ever will we do!?!? Lets get real. If 2 people are in love and they want to get married, who are we to say that they can't just because they are of the same sex. I understand that the Catholic religion is against it and they cannot be wed in a church, but that doesn't mean that they can't get married. Heterosexual marriages also get married with a judge instead of a priest or whatever. This is just rediculous. By hearing that homosexual marriages should be outlawed to me is just like hearing that blacks shouldn't be able to vote. This is America. We are supposed to be a free country. I understand that we are not completely free, but America was based on the fact that you were allowed to practice your own beliefs anway of life and not have to be judged by them or OUTLAW YOUR MARRIAGES. Homosexuals aren't goin to touch you and make you gay or anything, they aren't going to spread mass diseases. They are normal people...just have a different sexual preference from straight people. They should not be talked about any differently. Do we say "Hey look at that straight guy" or "My friend Steve...yea he's straight...but anyway."? No we don't. We realized how terrible it was to discriminate against black people, why can't we see this now? We are in the year 2004...anything is possible and I really feel as if we are taking a step back. Way back.
Anyone can agree with me or disagree with me, but I just hope people realize how closed minded and intolerant this really is. We're supposed to have speraration of church and state and this does not have to be a religous matter.
I really just can't believe how many eyes are still closed in this country......
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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Don't assume things anymore, make sure everything is out in the open....not that anything is really bad, but for future reference
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
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Wow, I haven't updated in a while. I haven't really been doing that much, I just haven't felt like updating. I have a head ache right now....kinda had one all day. Thats never really a good thing. This whole weekend has been a 5 day weekend for me. It's a nice little break from school which is cool, because I go back to school on wed, have classes for 2 days and then it's the weekend again for me. So that's good. I got Metallica tix this weekend! I'm always happy to know I'm going to a Metallica show..it's over priced...but it's Metallica...it's the only band that I'd pay a lot of money for. Maybe it's a bad thing, maybe not, I don't care, this is what I like to spend my money on, so I don't care. I'm going by myself though. None of my friends wanted to go, so I'm going solo on this one. I've been going through a lot lately. Gina and I have been fighting, so that's never good...I'm really trying best to make it all stop. All I do is care about her and fighting is completley not necessary. I don't give up though....I never will...not on something that is this special and means so much to me. I sent her a really sweet valentines day card. It was the first time I've ever given someone a serious card. I just felt that in light of everything that was goin on, it was appropriate. I'm looking at a picture of her right now and I can't help but smile....that's what she does to me. It kinda reminds me from something that was just said in the movie Just Married. This guy was looking through a picture album and took notice to the fact that everyone is always happy in pictures....you're always smiling. He said that it's times like this that take from one happy picture to the other. Gina and I will get through this. I know it. Another thing that's really been bothing me A LOT lately is my future. I've never really been worried, but now I'm getting really scared. I have no clue what I want to do with my life anymore. I'm taking AVF24, which is teaching me stuff I'll need to do while working on tv and stuff and I just don't know if I love it. It's pretty cool I guess, but I have no clue. I know I've only been in the class for 2 weeks but it just seems like it's a lot of pressure on me already. My professor doesn't go in to things a lot durring class cuz she doesn't have enough time and says that we need to go to open lab hours to work on things ourselves, but I can't go to them, cuz I have work durring that time. I'm really just feeling uncomfortable when I'm thinking about my future now. Yesterday Elaine suggested to me elementary education. I'm actually contemplating it. It pays pretty well, I get to work with kids and I love kids, but I'm just not sure. In doing it, I would def. still be able to do the band, because I would always have nights and weekends to do it and Males are in high demand. I really just don't know...I can honestly say that I'm very scared. I really wish I just knew what I wanted to do and I was happy with it and everything was just good like that....I guess it can't be like that. I'll figure it out...I know I will. I always try to have a positive out look on things, because if you don't, I feel that you're just going to have a much harder time figuring things out....don't dwell, look at what's good, be positive and don't be a pesemist....I've really realized that by doing so you'll be a much happier person and I think I am because I do that....well....
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wash up
sleep
G'night
-Mike-
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depressed.
nervous.
weird.
tired.
impressed.
blah.